2-16-08

Toda y has been fun I guess. It’s hard to be tired and not really “fit in”. I know I’m not being myself because I feel like I would have to force that unpretentious happiness right now and that’s not how I want to play this game. I really am feeling like I’m at camp. We’re out in the middle of nowhere and playing all these games, there is the sun and the bugs- It’s just like summer camp. The thing is I never much liked camp. I just want to settle into a routine and get to start traveling some. I want to see the beach and Melbourne. It’s hard to adjust to all of these all of at once. Especially because I don’t have anyone. I think it’ll be okay and that it will get better but I really need to work on my attitude about all of this. I need to out on a happy face and get over all of my complaints. I can do this and it’ll be fun!!!